ugh. I have a god-awful cold that I picked up from Keni, who decided to catch it from Steven. this cold is all kinds of miserable. right now I feel like death; I took some Benadryl earlier to stop my nose from being that painful kind of tickly, and took a long nap, but despite drinking orange juice before I slept, I think I'm crazy dehydrated. also, drinking too much orange juice seems to have its own unpleasant side effects... lol. I have a chicken pot pie waiting for me, but I'm not sure I can actually eat it right now. it smells so good, but I feel so bad. I'm sure eating would make me feel better - at least give me a little energy - but I can't even think about it, with how bad I feel. I need some Sudafed... stupid laws.

I wish I could get Keni to stop by the gas station on the way home and get me a giant blue Powerade. they always make me feel better. he won't want to though, and while I do have a 'favor no-complaining' in stock, I don't want to use it up on something as simple as Powerade. I did consider using it to get to Alabama to get some Sudafed. that would have been pretty worthy. but for some reason I can't spend it, lol.

ugh. I just want to be well!

today has been a festival of... bad. interesting, but bad. I did manage to go to most of my classes, all the important ones anyway. got a thing of cotton candy. did a little bit of work. played some WoW (my paladin is finally 80!). tried to take a nap and kind of failed. moped a lot. watched the D&D game the awesome people did at PAX, or at least the first three and a half videos of it, so that was awesome. because I really love that group. especially Wil Wheaton. lol. :P

still very sad though. still for the same reason. and everything just feels like a giant cavalcade of fail lately. god, I have got to get out of this funk.

petting the crazy dog is fun though :)

well, it's been a sucky weekend, lol. there have been a few bright spots, but not many. we finally got the new part for the toilet, but can't get the old one off, so we haven't fixed it yet. at least the water is off to it so it doesn't make noise anymore.

and I tried to stretch to 0g last night - actually I did stretch to 0g last night, the plugs went in fine - but it was way too early, which I knew, and still tried to do it anyway, and at first it was fine but then when I was trying to sleep it was unbearable pain that was keeping me awake. so I went back to 2. sigh. I know I need to get some 1g stuff, but it's so hard to find. the people on BAF buy it up as soon as it gets posted because it's so rare. that really pisses me off. I can't afford it anyway though, so I guess it doesn't really matter. for an exercise that's supposed to be teaching me patience, it sure does anything but.

and overall I'm just not happy with the state of things. that's not even true - I hate the state of things. but I don't think it's going to change any time soon, or basically ever, so I'm stuck being unhappy until I can get over it. ugggggh.

one of these days I will have something happy to post and stop depressing people... lol.